I met a person who suggested this site to me and I thought I try it. Well I picked the name Lonely, by Dictionary defintion Lonely means: being alone; solitary; without company; companionless, isolated. We'll that is how I feel although I am surrounded by people yet it is strange that in my soul I feel so alone. There are so many people who are in the same situation, what is it that my soul longs for, I have begun a new stage of life yet as I look back I have had that empty and lonely feeling in my soul for the past 20 years. I ask what happened, was it the loss of so many that I loved to death or to other situations that ended stealing my happiness as I write this my eyes swell with tears. I guess I still have not learned to live with the cards life handed me. Yeah I know were suppose to move on, maybe I am to much of a sentimental person. I yet to figure out why I still struggle with this. There have been too many losses to mention. I know there are others who have sufferred so much more severe losses yet they are able to move on how I want that knowledge I need to move on. I wish there was a happy pill to take although I have taken about every anti-depressants on the market and tried therapy what sustains me is my personal relationship with the higher power I believe in, if it was not for that I would have moved on from here to the other side. I wonder what a waits there for us, will it be a better place? Guess we have to wait till we get there to find out, although I will admit there are days I anxiously wait for that day but I dare not to end my life at my own hands for fear of my spiritual beliefs.