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I met a person who suggested this site to me and I thought I try it. Well I picked the name Lonely, by Dictionary defintion Lonely means: being alone; solitary; without company; companionless, isolated. We'll that is how I feel although I am surrounded by people yet it is strange that in my soul I feel so alone. There are so many people who are in the same situation, what is it that my soul longs for, I have begun a new stage of life yet as I look back I have had that empty and lonely feeling in my soul for the past 20 years. I ask what happened, was it the loss of so many that I loved to death or to other situations that ended stealing my happiness as I write this my eyes swell with tears. I guess I still have not learned to live with the cards life handed me. Yeah I know were suppose to move on, maybe I am to much of a sentimental person. I yet to figure out why I still struggle with this. There have been too many losses to mention. I know there are others who have sufferred so much more severe losses yet they are able to move on how I want that knowledge I need to move on. I wish there was a happy pill to take although I have taken about every anti-depressants on the market and tried therapy what sustains me is my personal relationship with the higher power I believe in, if it was not for that I would have moved on from here to the other side. I wonder what a waits there for us, will it be a better place? Guess we have to wait till we get there to find out, although I will admit there are days I anxiously wait for that day but I dare not to end my life at my own hands for fear of my spiritual beliefs.

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Comment by Lonely on October 25, 2009 at 6:41pm
PD I went through a period of months where for the first time in my life I began to doubt my faith, and I would ask why I had never felt that before, it took time till my faith increased so I can relate to you. It is difficult to go through things when you feel your faith is lost but trust and believe and I am going to believe for both of us that your faith is restored. Good wishes to you!
Comment by SIN on October 25, 2009 at 3:37pm
Me too.
Comment by Rattananan Karninsee on October 22, 2009 at 10:25am
You aren't alone. I lost everyone who I love. No family. Now I'm alone but not lonely. I have my 2 beloved dogs and friends. I knew I can find love easily if I just look around and open my heart. Happiness comes from within, plant the seed and let it grow.
Comment by SIN on October 22, 2009 at 9:11am
Dear Lonely,

Have you tried art?
Also, the writing will help you, it gets it out of your brain and on something else.
Keep it up...
I see you joined the writer's group, go there and write whenever you want.
I strongly suggest you consider art as a new outlet. It has really helped me.

Thanks for sharing!

Cynthia

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